Monday, December 28, 2009

Night on the eve of xmas...

At night, on the eve of xmas
I look into the eyes of the sky,
And thrust into an orphan’s embrace,
In kingdoms lost and unforeseen,
Skirting the shorelines of memory,
To the early footsteps of a painful path,
From the light of hope to murky gloom,
Words that reverberated like ship-bells,
Distant wisps on a fog-laden sea,
Tendrils of a transition there to present,
Flood like silent water cascades…
At night, on the eve of xmas,
It returns as it always was… always been,
Hanging there again for me to see,
Slowly from behind long drawn shades,
The coda of our unfinished symphony,
Always returning,
At night, on the eve of xmas.

Love leaves...

Frozen, wintry laughter,
Wrought, false and dry,
Golden amulets of teardrops,
Crisp and cold,
Break down in minuscules
And run runnel,
Flitting the scape,
Down the napes into capes,
Cleft between sadness and joy,
Threnodies and carols,
A silent bleeding,
For at first crack,
The reindeers trudge on home,
And tonight, love leaves...

Saturday, November 14, 2009

I adore you always mi Amor…

Tis’ deeply rooted feelings in my core,
And everyday it grows even more,
With you life’s never a bore,
One second without and I go sore,
Some people live it like its war,
Filled with moments of gloom and dour,
For others time is but a blur,
Laboring forth slowly like a slur,
In their faces always a shut door,
But you give me more sweetly than sour,
To my heart, a welcome spring thaw
And only you I live and die for,
I adore you for always mi Amor…

Rue Blues...

Think and think about that night,
was it the chance to make it right?
vesture the shining armour and be the knight?
but the stage was left for fright,
and a missed waltz to hold tight,
passed away in loss without a fight,
leave darkness put out the anthesis of light.

Now sails is set and take flight,
gliding oblivion like a shadowed kite,
distant clouds begin to blur with the sight,
straight course transformed to bight,
a journey neither can alight,
where purview slowly is none the bright.

Honesty demanded my every might,
deep inside a heart snow white,
crossed in a platter of plight,
and i know tis' eternally my blight,
cuz instead i gave a no more than a widows mite.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Forever yours…

You moved slowly,
Patiently watching and waiting,
Never rushing, never insisting,
Held my hands
And walked by my side,
True commitment in every step
A pillar of strength at bleary times,
Inspiration in the forlorn days,
Extra shoulders to carry life’s wonted burdens,
The pool that dammed stream of fears…
That’s why, I’m forever yours…

To let go…

It’s so hard to let go love thought held,
Ever so hard to give it up after it’s gone,
Even more so when it’s straight from the depths
And letting go is the only way out,
The only path to release from the debilitating pain…
Time will stand in place,
And the world, cease to turn
You will watch the distance to that back stretch,
Beyond imaginary groping fingers
Away from the beats of your heart
And the drench from the swirling pool of tears
It’s hard… always so hard to let go!


POETRY OF THE LONELY…

Sorrow fills the heart,
Like the slow spread of poisonous venom,
Pain is persistent,
like an insatiable hunger refusing to be quenched.
Burning embers of passion lay in the depths of the soul,
like rare artifacts waiting to be unearthed.
the soul hopelessly searches for a mate,
like a lost sheep in acres of barren land.
the being is incomplete'
like the sky without the stars,
Spirit so low down,
like a sunken ship in the ocean deeps.
Body longs for the warmth of loving touch,
like the earth thirsts for rain in the dry season. 
the heart is like a lost and forgotten island,
just waiting...
waiting to be discovered,
waiting to love and be loved!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Be my all…

Take my hand,
Lead me across these waters
Bring the calm,
Stall these rapid swarms
And drifting torrents that storm
Hold me aloft,
Up and above this sweltering river of pain,
This cascade of pelt
And a future in drown.
Touch my soul,
Fill it with magic,
Bathe it in warmth,
Coat it with love.
Take away my every yearn,
Dull this throbbing ache,
And mend this broken heart.
Bring back the light,
Illuminate the path,
Be my guide,
Lead me aright,
Be my refuge,
The pillar of all my strength,
Be my all…
All I need,
All I’ll ever need!

Love leaves...

Frozen, wintry laughter,
Wrought, false and dry,
Golden amulets of teardrops,
Crisp and cold,
Break down in minuscules
And run runnel,
Flitting the scape,
Down the napes into capes,
Cleft between sadness and joy,
Threnodies and carols,
A silent bleeding,
For at first crack,
The reindeers trudge on home,
And tonight, love leaves...

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Passionless…

An icicle in blistering sunshine,
Drop by drop, melting away,
Yielding slowly with every wave,

But intent on focus,
Defiant in the steady heat,
Not to be felt or reached,
Stock still, wide teary gaze,

Far off and crazed,
Piercing hate into the stifling dark,
Just a lifeless furrow on the surface,
Resigned to an unsavory faith,
Dead, inside and out!

Giving in...

This wait's been infinitude
I toiled long and hard to get here,
gave my heart on a silver platter,
strode by your side years and on,
sold my soul to buy your time,
kept faith and stayed true blindly.
Now,
the fight's against me,
bleeding your way for inspiration,
anything to keep that flame burning,
for a reason to stand,
wrestle this scourge feeding inside.
But each today's more shattering than before,
and tomorrow promises no less than more...
these hands and limbs are weary and numb,
head and shoulders drooped with the age
eyes teary and blurred
and they tell me its time...
time to give in!

Monday, July 20, 2009

Three Years on...

Three years on and I still feel it,
The words come back in a piece and bit,
My heart’s still hollow,

Deeps run shallow,
All the way down to the marrow,
Eternally, tis’ now like a vice,
For thine memories still locks me in a vise …
Rains have come,
And storms long gone,
Thought I’d seen it all,
Standing strong and tall,
Seein’ out the darkness of the nightfall,
Heard the healing balm of Venus’ call,
Above the dirge of your pall,
But three years on and I still feel bit
Like I’ve only just been hit …
You still stop my heartbeat,
Make my pulse rise and heat,
Still sweep me off my feet …
Three years on and you still fill my every thoughts’
And like t’was on that cold, cold night,
I still feel the hurt...

Sunday, July 19, 2009

My love, my life…

It’s so hard to let go,
So hard to give in,
But when love decides to leave,
Choice leaves only one open dooe.
Today is the longest day of my life,
The saddest moments of my existence,
Standing here watching you walk away,
Knowing that we’ve come to the end of the road,
Tears me up inside,
Bleeds me poor ol’ heart dry
And suicidal thoughts push to end the misery…
Oh, what I wouldn’t give for another chance,
A second bite of love’s unfermented cherry,
For a re-run of all ‘em glorious memories made,
Sweet and sour…
Grating and gratifying…
I lie here pained, dying from grief,
Discordant chimes of reflections inside,
Yet still betrothed to you soul and spirit,
I still love you more than words can say,
So much that even bitterness hath no room
And anger’s fire is smoldered by age-long affections…
Pray! You may leave as your heart desires,
Smitten as I am,
I cannot hold you back,
Or fight that which I cannot see or be,
You’re a prized possession that hath the freedom to fly
And fly as you please you shall…
I pray God bless you as you go,
My wish for you wherever you go is,
That your dreams stay big,
Your worries small,
And you never have to carry more than you can bear,
No matter what becomes of you
Or indeed I,
You hold a special place in my heart,
Eternally filled with the cornucopia of gifts you gave,
Protected with the fervency of a lover’s jealousy
A place that can never be touched by anyone,
Because always and forever you are,
My love, my life…

Forever yours…

You moved slowly,
Patiently watching and waiting,
Never rushing,
never insisting,
Held my hands
Walked by my side,
True commitment in every step,
A pillar of strength at bleary times,
Inspiration in the forlorn days,
Extra shoulders to carry life’s wonted burdens,
The pool that dammed my every tear…
That’s why, I’m forever yours…